Dear Doctor

Dear Medical Professional, You will ask about his medical history, And I will repeat the story I have told 100 times or more, The details fine tuned to the essentials I know you need: He was born full term, He has a 7 year old brother who is fit and well, He is allergic to penicillin.  You will ask me what happened, And I will answer: He is 6 years old. He wasn't breathing for 7 minutes. I gave him mouth to mouth. I will hand over a careful typed piece of A4 paper. It will tell you his hospital number, The things he is allergic to, A list of medications and doses. You will take it and smile. You'll tell me I make your job easier. I will stand calm, And in control.  You see my demeanour, my hospital bags packed and ready, And you say, You've done this before. I'll nod and say many times. But remember this; That 6 year old is my baby. That boy with the oxygen, And the wires, And the tubes, Is my son. I watched him turn bl

VNS - The Surgery

"So, where are we off to now then mum?"
Second on the list for his VNS surgery, it was nearly midday before Hugh was called down to theatre. Unaware of what lay ahead he sat smiling in his wheelchair in the flimsy cotton gown. The theatre staff were brilliant and thoughtfully allowed me to take him down in his chair; he'd feel more comfortable and less threatened that way, rather than wheeling him on his hospital bed. He smiled all the way down to theatre, enjoying the new adventure.


Although six years old, cognitively he's still like a baby so there was no way to explain what was going to happen to him. Instead he sat in my lap and I cuddled him and sang nursery rhymes as they held the gas mask in front of his face. I admit I had to swallow a rather large lump in order to keep singing. I felt like I was tricking him somehow. 



The hard part, I find, is handing him over, limp and lifeless, when the gas has done it's job. Leaving your child with strangers, when they're so fragile and vulnerable is utterly soul destroying. It took every ounce of my strength to walk away after giving him one last kiss on the head. 

I'm not sure it gets any easier, watching your child have a general anaesthetic. Despite his complex needs Hugh has had comparatively few GAs - two for MRIs of his brain, one to have his tonsils and adenoids out and one to have his gastrostomy feeding tube put in. It's probably more than most six-year-olds but it's significantly less than some children with conditions like Hugh's. 

Waiting ... just waiting...
The VNS surgery takes about an hour. They make a cut in the chest area to place the electronic device and another on the neck where they attach the electrodes to the vagus nerve. Thankfully, they don't have to go anywhere near his actual brain during surgery. 

I was told to expect Hugh back after around two hours, by three hours I was becoming quite anxious, pacing the ward and moving things from the locker to the bedside table and back again. Finally after 3.5 hours we were called down. He'd struggled to breathe after surgery and they'd had to keep him intubated for longer than expected and when he did finally start breathing on his own his oxygen levels were too low. When I saw him in the post-op recovery room, he looked so small and frail.  Whilst I know that this is the best chance we have of controlling his seizures, I couldn't help but feel guilty for putting him through the pain.
Back on the ward, after surgery.

Although it took him quite some time to come round, the operation was deemed a success. Hugh remained in hospital overnight and was discharged the following day, with an appointment to switch on the device in 10 days time.


And so, Hugh's VNS adventure begins. 

"Adventure? I'm up for an adventure ..."

You can find out why Hugh needs Vagus Nerve Stimulation therapy here: The Next Step




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  1. This post had me in tears, you are so brave but I know it's not a choice you just have to be. I know I would have been a bag of nerves after two hours, I could not have kept calm with all that waiting. I really hope it goes well when they switch on the device.

    Thanks for linking up with Small Steps Amazing Achievements :0)
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    1. Thanks Jane- I was very anxious, but all was well in the end.

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  2. I can't begin to imagine how that all felt for you, but fingers crossed the next stage goes well for him #SSAA

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